Amy Pierce

UGH I'm so sick of everything and everybody. I don't know any of my friends anymore, pretty sure I've lost some of my best ones, and I'm not even really that sad about it. I think once I started drifting away from people I began to see all their bullshit, which prompted me to distance myself even further. Not that my shit doesn't stink, because it does, but I try to be a decent human being, you know? Nobody seems to share my views on what being decent includes, I guess. I just wish I could find one person who shares my interests and my outlook on life. I'm surrounded by stereotypical "college kids," and I don't fit in at all. Until I do run into that someone, I'll just keep hanging out with myself, which I don't really mind. At least I have my family and Jake. I know they'll be here when it matters.

That's all, I just needed an outlet for that.

It's been about a month, so I guess it's time for another post! Recently...let's see, school is SO monotonous and I absolutely can not wait until the semester ends(in less than a month!), I've lost twenty five pounds, I've been sick for going on five days now, I'm still head over heels in love with Jacob Hoskins, and I realized how awesome my job is.

I'm really looking forward to this weekend, because my mom, aunt, my cousin Jessica and myself are going to the outlet malls! Yay for spending money I don't need to spend. BUT I get to pick out my birthday/Christmas gifts so that will be fun. I've finally become old enough to follow in my mothers footsteps and pick out all my own presents, wrap them myself, and act surprised when I unwrap them on the date they were bought for! Haha. Speaking of age, I'll be twenty in about six weeks, and that is a day I'm also looking forward to. It won't be as exciting as eighteen was and certainly not as exciting as twenty-one will be next year, but it's a birthday none-the-less.

ALSO! I may possibly have Spring Break plans. I have been invited to join Jess, her boy/my ex-classmate Evan, Mitch and his boyfriend Danny, and Chelsea to go to Florida! And, since my financial situation is extremely stellar right now, and I forsee it being that way in March, too; I'm going to accept. I wish Jake could come, but Pellissippi still refuses to have the same break as UTK at any point in time. Ever. So that sucks, and hopefully I won't be gone the entire week so we can still get into some trouble and enjoy too much tequila (another story for another time). I'm very proud of myself for being (nearly) financially independent. The only thing my parents pay for now is my car insurance. I'll admit they help me out with car payments or pay a little on my cell phone bill, all without telling me, just because they want to, which I appreciate. Also there's the summer and December that I spend at home (still living there for a few months a year is a good transition, I think). Everybody was talking about how they have to talk to their parents about going on the trip and they might be able to go and such.. but, my parents don't have any jurisdiction over what I do anymore, even though I still try to respect their advice, so I alone will make that decision. Makes me feel all adult-like.

Currently, I am completely annoyed with this wart on my finger. It is SO SMALL, but damn does it cause problems. I was cleaning today and somehow it got caught on something (it's right on my knuckle, how convenient) and was ripped halfway off, so I tried to rip it all the way off, didn't succeed, and the thing started bleeding EVERYWHERE. Okay, that's the end of my bitching.

Anyways, I still have about twenty pages of LOTR to read for tomorrow so I'm going to go and finish that up now.

First morning of fall break has been alright. Slept until about 10:45. It gets bright in here pretty early, because the blinds are pretty cheap. Therefore, it's nearly impossible to sleep in.

Anywhosie, the main thing I want to concentrate on is selling things on eBay and playing Sims. I haven't played since I moved in. Also, The Office tonight! Exciting, exciting. At the moment, I'm killing time before I have to get ready to be picked up by my parents to go eat. Naturally, I make an LJ post, haha. Hopefully we'll have some yummy food and then go to the mall (again, keep reading), and then I can spend the rest of the day with Jake watching The Office and hopefully spending the night with Em afterwards!

Yesterday a lot of us were planning to go see New Found Glory in Nashville, but that plan failed terribly. Leave it to us to try and buy tickets like three hours before the show starts. Of course it was sold out! Even the guy going with us that already had a ticket got screwed out of a ride, so it sucked for everybody. Except all those lucky bastards that actually got to go. After that discovery, Jake and I decided to just go spend the money we set aside for the trip and ended up having a HUGE sushi/hibachi meal at Wasabi (with a coupon, we don't eat anywhere without a coupon these days), and walked around the mall for about an hour or so. I had a coupon for Victoria's Secret to get a free pair of underwear and ten dollars off a bra so I made good use of that-free undies and a bra for twenty dollars! And it's a good bra, too. My mother tried to get me to wear stuff from Target and Wal-Mart for a long time, but I just couldn't ever live with the ones I got from there. VS is where it's at. I can finally have enough from there to retire my cheap ones! Okay, I'll stop talking about underwear now, haha, and go get ready. Ciao!

I am now obsessed with eBay, and I'm proud.  Just wanted to put that out there.

Overall it's been a pretty productive day.  I washed my dishes, cleaned out Luke and Leia's tank, and... well, that's about it, haha.  So, maybe not as productive as I thought, but there are more things on my list to do.  I took a three hour nap today, which I guess slowed down my progress.  I have not yet posted pictures of my fishies!  I'll do that in this post.  First, I have to take pictures of them.  Other things to do today: shower, homework, Project Runway.

We had a fire-drill today, and I wonder what the point is.  I mean, we've been doing fire-drills since we were what, five/six years old?!  I think we know what to do by now.  If you don't, then you should probably burn with the building.  Okay, maybe that's a little harsh, but honestly, it's common sense at this point.  And the UTPD idiots were out there [in the tone of an overweight redneck] "Yeah, uh, we can't have anybody on the pavement, so let's move it to the grass folks."  Who the hell gives a rat's ass about UTPD wants you to do?  I'll leave this open to discussion if anyone should have respect for them.  Anyways, everybody was losing their sanity outside (dorm fire-drill newbies) and calling people telling them about how the fire drill went off and they were in the middle of doing some mundane task and omg it's just so loud!  So, instead of being herded, I just decided to go get some Asian express in the UC.  Great choice.

( Okay, pictures. )

I really have a lot of other things I could be doing, like massive amounts of homework, dishes, getting prescriptions filled and the like, but instead I'm writing a LiveJournal entry.  It's a Saturday night though, can you blame me for not wanting to do any of the aforementioned activities?!  I'm already burnt out on school, and it's not even October yet.

Jake and I had our one year anniversary Thursday, and he totally surprised me.  I didn't hear from him all day (he doesn't have a cell phone at the moment and I have phone phobia, therefore have issues calling his home phone) so I was a little perturbed.  I mean, I know a lot of people think anniversaries aren't really  celebratory, especially if you're just dating, but I was so excited.  I went into work bummed out that I hadn't talked to him and things hadn't happened like I expected they would, but at five o'clock in walks Mr. Hoskins!  I was due for a break, so I took my fifteen and followed him to his car.  He pulled out an edible bouquet with a balloon on it!  We've had this thing about "Edible Arrangements" for a while now, so it probably means more to me than it would seem to any of you, haha.  Anyways, I told my manager about our anniversary and showed her what he got me, and she was surprisingly moved to let me off early?!  It was amazing.  I must have done something right recently, because that day everything was perfect.  We went and ate at Calhoun's and then came back for The Office reruns (new season in two weeks!!).  I think it ranks in my top five favorite days of my life thus far.  Sometimes when I'm with him I feel like I'm in some kind of cheesy romance movie, except everything is completely genuine and lasts longer than an hour and a half.

Which leads me to what I'm doing now...being all sentimental and daydreaming while watching Chuck for the first time (I'm getting kinda into it, btw).  Jake spent the night with me last night for the first time this year and not sleeping alone raised my spirits a lot.  I just wish it could happen more often.  I'd really like to not be this emotional and mushy right now!  It's very distracting and makes me kinda sad.

In other news, I recently got a new phone.  I got a fancy touch screen LG in the beginning of it all, but I couldn't handle the touch screen.  It made me feel really old since I couldn't get the hang of it.  When I reached the point of wishing no one would call or text me so I wouldn't have to use that phone, I thought I should try a new one.  So, I went with the BlackBerry Curve, and I love LOVE it.  We're best buds now.  Even though it's really high maintenance and I have to pay for all the extra expenses on the bill.  For some reason I seem to be in a rush to spend all that loan money I took out!  I've spend over 50% of it and I just got the money on August 25.  Not good.  I honestly think I have a mental problem with spending money; I have an addiction.  I spent four hours at the mall by myself today!?!  Also, not good.  Somebody help me.  I mean, I'll not eat all day so that I can buy a shirt when I go into work that night, and that's not okay.

Emily has done well to persuade me to attend my first UT football game, and I have nothing orange to wear.  I'm debating actually going or not.  I'd like to go just to say that I've been, because God KNOWS I'm sick of hearing the response "OMG YOU'VE NEVER BEEN TO A GAME?!?!?!?!?!?!?!" when someone discovers I've never been to one.  I'd also like to finally spend time with my dragon companion Puff, because we suck at getting plans together!

Just on a final note, politics really depresses me.  Our government depresses me.  I wanna move out of this country.  In fact, I plan on doing so.  I just don't know where I'd rather go yet.

I need to stop being such a worrier/control freak.  :(

Also, I'm in a real bad mood cause the floors in my room are wet.  As in you can see the condensation on the floor.  Wtf.  Everything in here is damp.  No, thank you.

I moved into my dorm yesterday.  When I got here, I was so disappointed because it was smaller than I expected, there were no doors on the closets, and I had two sets of furniture.  I had bought an entertainment center, new LCD television, and made plans to get a futon.  That wasn't going to work out with two sets of furniture.  But, with a lot of help from my parents and a little creativity everything has come together alright.  Here are pictures!  It's a little messy cause I still have things to put up and I'm trying to get my things organized the way I want.

Nearly everything is fucked.  I just needed to get it out somewhere, and this is where I landed.

Well, my would-be roommate bailed on me after we found a perfect condo (one of the ones mentioned in my previous entry).  UT housing still had some stuff left, thank god, so I got a single dorm room.  It's a little expensive, but I don't have a lot of options left at this point.  I probably could've kept looking until September and found something, but it was causing me emotional and physical stress (I started waking up multiple times a night from severe stomach cramps in the midst of searching for a place to live).  I bought myself a nice little LG LCD television to go in my room.  I'm most excited about getting to watch The Office in HD!  Haha, how lame am I?  I'm watching Law & Order right now.  That show can hold my attention for hours on end, and it actually does on Sunday/Monday marathons.

My mom just pulled a homemade apple cobbler out of the oven, therefore this has to end now.